On being self-conscious
Sunday, December 11th, 2005Sometimes, I catch myself talking about myself a lot. I am very particular of that because I hate it when other people talk about themselves a lot and don’t even ask anything about me, like it’s my great delight to be "all ears". I guess, I give that impression because I’ve always been polite and accomodating in relating with other people. I nod my head as if to agree, say my "uh-huh’s" and "right" at the right time, look at the person’s eyes when talking, etc. I consider myself to be quite adept with social graces. But at the back of my head, I go: "enough about you, let’s talk about something else, like me, for one." I could never say that out loud, of course. And then I would smile and nod again. That’s why I sometimes envy people who have the ability to say what they honestly think right away. That’s why i am self-conscious this way.
